Wednesday, September 29, 2010

My cup runneth over...

The past few months have been ridiculously good. And crazy. And overwhelming. Sometimes all I can do is laugh at how different my life is, how much has changed, and how many blessings continue to fall my way.

I'm in love. With so many things...

An amazing guy, Jason, who is handsome and funny and charming and witty. He's a great father, he's a caring son, friend, boyfriend. He loves my family, I love his. He fits right into my life and my heart. I feel so blessed to have him in my life.

My job is going great. Sold 4 houses over the past few months and having closing and getting commission checks (!!!!!!!) once again and I feel like my old self, only a better, more me version of who I used to be. The people I work for, with, the people I sell houses to, I love it.

Jason's kids are so much fun. And sweet. And funny. And going to tball practices and watching them dance and play and taking them to school, I've missed having kids in my life. At times the loss of J knocks me down but I take a step back, cry when I need to, pray for him and move on. That's what got me to where I am, I learned to keep moving on...

Friends are pregnant. Falling in love. Getting married. Going through divorce. Losing jobs. Losing themselves. Ebbs and flows of life. Up one minute, crashing the next. Laughing at a story, crying over a heartache. Its what bonds us together I guess and shows you who is meant to be in your life. The ones who allow you to laugh when you can, cry when you need to and celebrate the victories. And who allow you to reciprocate with them. And I am. Celebrating the good news of my friends, hurting for the ones facing things I wish they didn't have to face. Its hard growing up. It's easier when you have great people growing up with you.

My Dad is 60. Emotional!! I remember when my grandfather's turned 60. Doesn't seem like my Dad should be old enough to be that old. I'm reminded constantly and continually how lucky I am to be blessed with the parents I have. Jason has given my parents the gift of laughter. He makes them belly laugh. And that makes me happy.

I'm going to be 32 in 33 days. Yikes. How is it possible that I'm old enough to be that old? I don't look at day over 31. I've embarked on a new fitness/healthy lifestyle regime. To be a better me. To prepare for all the things that come with falling in love and finding the person you want to make your forever with. Marriage, kids, life.

When much is given, much is expected. I'm trying to remember everyday what brought me to where I am. Not in a looking to the past to hold me back way but in a look how far I've come way. The next few months are going to be busy, exciting and chaotic. And I'm loving every minute of it.

I'm blessed. More than I deserve!