Got home about 730 this morning. Megan made her flight and we all made it home safely through a mostly rain filled road trip through the night. Thanks Dad!
I can't remember being this exhausted in a long time. Feels like we were gone for 2 weeks instead of 4 days. Did a lot of walking, a lot of sight seeing, a lot of screaming at the games and just a lot of being a tourist in the Big Easy.
Tomorrow is a new day of a new week that is going to bring answered prayers, job offer, new beginnings. I'm confident of that. It's also Jonas' bday. He's going to be 7. Saw a little guy in the French Quarter that made me and Mom both do a double take. He had on an outfit that looked like what Jonas wore most days to school. His hair was spiked in the front like J's. He was drinking out of a cup and looked down into it like J did. It felt like a kick in the gut and it made me cry. But that little boy was probably 4. The J I know and remember. I wonder about this soon to be 7 yr old boy....I pray for him through out the day, everyday.
New Orleans was the first vacation I've taken, aside from my honeymoon, in probably 10 years. It was kind of bittersweet, honestly. I love that I got to spend that time with my parents. With Megan. I just got the feeling on the way home that my life is really about to change. Drastically from the safety of this new nest that's been supplied and created for me over the past few years. We're ready for good news. We're ready for me to get out of this nest. We're ready for me to have a paycheck... :)
I have more to say, I have more inside. But right now I'll just leave it with the lyrics from a song I love. And with the knowledge and confidence that things...they are a changing.
I think of the song, "Ready to Fly"
I've been here grounded far too long
I'm ready to see the open wide
Ready to sing a different song
I've seen my troubles 'long the way
I want to sail towards the sun
I want to turn another page
I'm on my way
I'm ready to fly,
I'm ready to soar
I'm ready to leave this world behind.
I'm ready to open up the door
I'm ready to fly,
I'm ready to spread my wings across the sky
I think it's time
I'm ready to go
I'm ready to fly.
You've told me I could rise above
Like an eagle on the wind
I can glide upon Your love
But I feel the pull of gravity
And it's a weight upon my shoulders
i can't stay here any longer
I've gotta be free
And it's been so long
Since i've seen the bright morning sun
Through the early morning horizon
And it's been so long
Since i've felt the air under my wings
And seen all of these things from above
I'm ready to fly,
I'm ready to soar
I'm ready to leave this world behind.
I'm ready to open up the door
I'm ready to fly,
I'm ready to spread my wings across the sky
I think it's time
I'm ready to go
I'm ready to fly.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
The Big Easy, Ants, high heels and soul food
In the Big Easy. So fun. Dad's old stomping grounds from his childhood so he's had fun playing tour guide. Game was last night and was a blowout, hoping for the same tomorrow night. Then after the game we're driving straight through to get Megan to her 11am flight in Jax. Long stressful story about that but it was taken care of with a new flight to accommodate the later game time.
The French Quarter. LOVED it! Street market, fancy boutiques, jazz bands, street performers, UK fans...very fun! Bourbon Street...dirty. Downtown New Orleans was fun as well!
Yesterday I wore my most comfortable heels that halfway through the day had a hole worn into the pad of the shoe. So I had to, twist my arm, buy some new shoes and finally threw my old shoes away. Bought some wedges that were really cute for about 9 blocks then made me semi crippled. Luckily Megan was nice enough to switch me her flip flops.
Today I wore more sensible stacked heels. Dad took us to a clearing by Lake Ponchasomethingorother. We were taking pictures and laughing and having fun and I look down and my pant leg was covered with ants. I stripped down to my panties screaming as Mom, Dad, Megan and perhaps some construction workers were laughing, a lot, at me...and Mom was busy taking pictures. I made dad take his wind breaker off and I put my legs through it and wore it upside down while Dad was nice enough to shake my jeans til all the ants were off. Awful! Good story though.
The food here is ridiculously good. Good thing we've walked 15 miles each day. The shopping is ridiculously good and cheap. I can't wait to get home and show off all my goods. I spent a little of my tax refund, it was worth it. So fun!
This trip has been really good for all of us. We've gotten on each other's nerves briefly bc we're 1. in such close quarters, 2. Megan and I are so much alike and 3. because we're tired and worn out. But having so much fun, we laugh and get over it.
Been a great distraction from the j-o-b waiting game. Talked to Richard Wed and he said all was good and we'd meet next week when he gets back in town. Keep praying!!
Going to bed and spending our last day in NOLA tomorrow with a big UK game to top off a great 4 days in a city I've never been.
Lucky, blessed and stuffed to the gills! xo
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Answered prayer
Bryce had his leg amputated today and they are confident that they removed all the cancer. He's going to have a rough road ahead learning how to live this new life as a 9yr old boy without his leg but he has an amazing, loving, Christian family to encourage and love him through this. Please continue to keep him in your prayers for continued healing, strength and peace. Keep his family in your prayers too, The Williams family, I know they appreciate it.
Spent the day with Megan at Whit's with her and the kids. Fun girl time!
Tomorrow Mom, Dad, Megan and I are New Orleans bound for the NCAA Tournament. Yay for seeing the CATS play. Also very excited to see New Orleans for the first time. Dad spent time there as a child and has always wanted to take Mom there and share that side of his family's history with her so it will be nice to experience that with them.
Emailing Richard tomorrow to make sure he hasn't forgotten about me and/or forgotten that he needs to hire me for that position. Being gone til Sunday will be a nice distraction from waiting to hear from him.
My heart is heavy for a lot of people right now. I know that God has a plan that is to prosper all of us if we seek His will. Sometimes it's hard to remember that when there is so much going on and so many distractions and hurt and pain...
But my God is big enough to cover that. To cover my friends pains, my family's hurts, my own frustrations. "Somehow my story is a part of Your plan, here I am." However I can best be used, wherever I can best be used...here I am.
Spent the day with Megan at Whit's with her and the kids. Fun girl time!
Tomorrow Mom, Dad, Megan and I are New Orleans bound for the NCAA Tournament. Yay for seeing the CATS play. Also very excited to see New Orleans for the first time. Dad spent time there as a child and has always wanted to take Mom there and share that side of his family's history with her so it will be nice to experience that with them.
Emailing Richard tomorrow to make sure he hasn't forgotten about me and/or forgotten that he needs to hire me for that position. Being gone til Sunday will be a nice distraction from waiting to hear from him.
My heart is heavy for a lot of people right now. I know that God has a plan that is to prosper all of us if we seek His will. Sometimes it's hard to remember that when there is so much going on and so many distractions and hurt and pain...
But my God is big enough to cover that. To cover my friends pains, my family's hurts, my own frustrations. "Somehow my story is a part of Your plan, here I am." However I can best be used, wherever I can best be used...here I am.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Erasing you...
We made fun on Nana for doing this. I think it was when Sandy was in the hospital having Matt and someone said something to Nana and we look over and she's moving her hand up and down and side to side and we were all sorts of confused. Asked what she was doing and said, "I'm erasing you!" Only Nana. Love her.
But now I know how she felt and why she was doing it. There's people and circumstances and things going on I'd love to erase. Judgemental people. People who have no idea except what they see through rose colored glasses. Lazy people. Ones who can whine and complain about whatever strikes them to bloviate about. Why don't you stop complaining about others and go visit your family. Or offer to go to the store for someone. Or go sit and talk and help friends that could use it. Just a thought!
I read a book while I was married about your love tank and it being full or empty. Was pertaining to how you felt in relation to your spouse. I have a BS level thats working quite the same way. I'm not going to deal in BS. From anyone. You're either real and want to be real in my life or you don't. I'm not meaning to be rude. I think I've made it clear, that I give people chance after chance after chance. Well its wearing me out. It's annoying me. You get wind that my life's about to change in a pretty great way, you want to ride in on the coattails of that. I dont ride coattails and certainly not letting people ride on mine. Get there yourself.
I guess I'm spring cleaning everything. Clothes havent worn in awhile are out. People who bring me more hurt than not are out. Family that doesn't care about family...out. I'll continue to pray, support and encourage as I can but my feelings about things have changed.
I'm ready to erase all the hurt, disappointments, anger, frustration and tears out of my scope of being. Life will not be rainbows and butterflies and "just keep staying positive and everything will be fine." Try that line on someone who has fought and fought and fought and tried over and over and over to make life better but it still isn't quite there in being you're time, will probably be something to not say. When you're in the dark before the morning...it's still dark. Doesn't mean my faith is gone. Doesn't mean I don't believe the light is around the corner. Just sometimes its ok to erase the people w the pollyanna views who are living the charmed life of oblivion. Because if they are erased then they probably can't do permanent harm...
Be nicer people. Love more people. Care about others. Pray for people. Don't judge how someone is doing based on your opinions of circumstances you've never yourself gone through. Thats called an opinion based on an assumption. Uh huh. IF you have gone through some of the same circumstances, share them. That's called encouragement and advice. And it's helpful when you're feeling lonely and overwhelmed.
MY Dawn is coming. I'm singing. I'm dancing. I'm believing. I'm making plans and I'm dreaming. Let me do that. But the times I'm overwhelmed and cry and have moments of frustrations, please don't judge how I handle it. It's rude and it's annoying. And that's why I have erased the posers. Making new room for the new people, new job, new opportunities, new places that I'll be experiencing very soon. I'm pressing on.
Here are virtual stones ****** Anyone without sin, please have the first throw!
But now I know how she felt and why she was doing it. There's people and circumstances and things going on I'd love to erase. Judgemental people. People who have no idea except what they see through rose colored glasses. Lazy people. Ones who can whine and complain about whatever strikes them to bloviate about. Why don't you stop complaining about others and go visit your family. Or offer to go to the store for someone. Or go sit and talk and help friends that could use it. Just a thought!
I read a book while I was married about your love tank and it being full or empty. Was pertaining to how you felt in relation to your spouse. I have a BS level thats working quite the same way. I'm not going to deal in BS. From anyone. You're either real and want to be real in my life or you don't. I'm not meaning to be rude. I think I've made it clear, that I give people chance after chance after chance. Well its wearing me out. It's annoying me. You get wind that my life's about to change in a pretty great way, you want to ride in on the coattails of that. I dont ride coattails and certainly not letting people ride on mine. Get there yourself.
I guess I'm spring cleaning everything. Clothes havent worn in awhile are out. People who bring me more hurt than not are out. Family that doesn't care about family...out. I'll continue to pray, support and encourage as I can but my feelings about things have changed.
I'm ready to erase all the hurt, disappointments, anger, frustration and tears out of my scope of being. Life will not be rainbows and butterflies and "just keep staying positive and everything will be fine." Try that line on someone who has fought and fought and fought and tried over and over and over to make life better but it still isn't quite there in being you're time, will probably be something to not say. When you're in the dark before the morning...it's still dark. Doesn't mean my faith is gone. Doesn't mean I don't believe the light is around the corner. Just sometimes its ok to erase the people w the pollyanna views who are living the charmed life of oblivion. Because if they are erased then they probably can't do permanent harm...
Be nicer people. Love more people. Care about others. Pray for people. Don't judge how someone is doing based on your opinions of circumstances you've never yourself gone through. Thats called an opinion based on an assumption. Uh huh. IF you have gone through some of the same circumstances, share them. That's called encouragement and advice. And it's helpful when you're feeling lonely and overwhelmed.
MY Dawn is coming. I'm singing. I'm dancing. I'm believing. I'm making plans and I'm dreaming. Let me do that. But the times I'm overwhelmed and cry and have moments of frustrations, please don't judge how I handle it. It's rude and it's annoying. And that's why I have erased the posers. Making new room for the new people, new job, new opportunities, new places that I'll be experiencing very soon. I'm pressing on.
Here are virtual stones ****** Anyone without sin, please have the first throw!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Exhausted...
Home. Back in my own bed. Probably how I'll feel when I get home from a business trip I'd assume.
Had a really good time with Whit and the kids. I'm brain dead now from lack of sleep, not sure how Whitney does it. She's a super mom! And a pretty great friend as well.
Tomorrow UK games, clean the house, take inventory of my shoes, bags, clothes and accessories before Megan gets here and tries to roll out with some of my goods.
Going to be a fun, exciting week. Looking forward to it. Right now most looking forward to sleep!
G'night all!
Had a really good time with Whit and the kids. I'm brain dead now from lack of sleep, not sure how Whitney does it. She's a super mom! And a pretty great friend as well.
Tomorrow UK games, clean the house, take inventory of my shoes, bags, clothes and accessories before Megan gets here and tries to roll out with some of my goods.
Going to be a fun, exciting week. Looking forward to it. Right now most looking forward to sleep!
G'night all!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Today, woot! Killed it!!
Great interview. I am more than confident that I have the position. The original one I interviewed for. The one where I'm a sales trainer and sales manager for teams all over the country. And Canada. Big sigh of relief.
It couldn't have gone better. I couldn't have better repoire (sp)with boss man. Which is a great thing since we'll be traveling together for at least the first few months as he introduces me to the sales teams and the GM's for the parks. Yes, I know how important that sounds and I am soo excited and soo beyond ready to start.
I won't have a definite answer until probably a week from Mon or Tues. Miserable. However, I've waited this long through the never ending interview process and I'd rather he take his time and make sure that I'm the right person for the job (which I am) than to make a knee jerk hire in putting me in the wrong position.
This has been a great week. Spend the past 3 days with Whit and the kids and drove back down to spend the evening with her tonight after my interview. And Megan gets here Sat and will be here til next Sun so I know I will have a great week with her.
I am blessed. I know I've been saying this alot lately but the more time that goes by the more I realize how accurate it is. Even in the face of big annoyances, my income tax being $1000 less than it should because of taxes I owed last year, checks being delayed because of government issues, my attorney ignoring all my calls and threats and my ex husband being typical, its ok. I know that I'm not just ok but well taken care of, prayed for and encouraged.
Life doesn't always go as it seems, hardly ever really, but it's life. And I heard my fave song today on the radio as I left my interview, "Whatever you're doing inside of me, it feels like chaos but somehow there's peace, you're up to something bigger than me, larger than life, something heavenly."
So true, so appropriate and such a great reminder. Whatever is going on in my life, chaotic feeling or not, which I'm pretty sure at 31 with the life I've lived...it will always be relatively chaotic, God is still working in me and through me. For something heavenly.
Blessed and knowing it! xo
It couldn't have gone better. I couldn't have better repoire (sp)with boss man. Which is a great thing since we'll be traveling together for at least the first few months as he introduces me to the sales teams and the GM's for the parks. Yes, I know how important that sounds and I am soo excited and soo beyond ready to start.
I won't have a definite answer until probably a week from Mon or Tues. Miserable. However, I've waited this long through the never ending interview process and I'd rather he take his time and make sure that I'm the right person for the job (which I am) than to make a knee jerk hire in putting me in the wrong position.
This has been a great week. Spend the past 3 days with Whit and the kids and drove back down to spend the evening with her tonight after my interview. And Megan gets here Sat and will be here til next Sun so I know I will have a great week with her.
I am blessed. I know I've been saying this alot lately but the more time that goes by the more I realize how accurate it is. Even in the face of big annoyances, my income tax being $1000 less than it should because of taxes I owed last year, checks being delayed because of government issues, my attorney ignoring all my calls and threats and my ex husband being typical, its ok. I know that I'm not just ok but well taken care of, prayed for and encouraged.
Life doesn't always go as it seems, hardly ever really, but it's life. And I heard my fave song today on the radio as I left my interview, "Whatever you're doing inside of me, it feels like chaos but somehow there's peace, you're up to something bigger than me, larger than life, something heavenly."
So true, so appropriate and such a great reminder. Whatever is going on in my life, chaotic feeling or not, which I'm pretty sure at 31 with the life I've lived...it will always be relatively chaotic, God is still working in me and through me. For something heavenly.
Blessed and knowing it! xo
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Tomorrow's the day...
I got an email today from boss man and he wanted to talk today instead of tomorrow. Good talk...
Spent the day at the outlets with Whit and the kids. Whit had Arden in the baby bjorn I had Trey in the monkey backpack. He thought it would be fun in Heartstrings, as mom is shopping for Easter outfits, to roll himsel up in the the backpack, monkey on a string.. He would roll himself up then drop on the floor an unroll himself. I was dying laughing, as was Whit. So fun. Then I went to Nine West and got the hottest pair of shoes to wear to my interview tomorrow.
So I'm talking to boss man, telling him of how great I am and how I will exceed at this position and after laughter and conversation he asks me to come in at 230 tomorrow for a face to face to "put some offers on the table."
I don't know if I'm best suited for a relo position or for the traveling position that I'm gunning for but I know this much...1. Boss man likes me, as he told me 10 times on the phone, 2. I'm well suited for either position and 3. That I'm soon going to be employed.
I got some hot new shoes, painted my nails and have my outfit picked of for my big face to face. However it goes, I know, this will be where I'm best suited for, and where I'll soar to success.
That I got to share it with my best friend is a plus. God is good. always!
Spent the day at the outlets with Whit and the kids. Whit had Arden in the baby bjorn I had Trey in the monkey backpack. He thought it would be fun in Heartstrings, as mom is shopping for Easter outfits, to roll himsel up in the the backpack, monkey on a string.. He would roll himself up then drop on the floor an unroll himself. I was dying laughing, as was Whit. So fun. Then I went to Nine West and got the hottest pair of shoes to wear to my interview tomorrow.
So I'm talking to boss man, telling him of how great I am and how I will exceed at this position and after laughter and conversation he asks me to come in at 230 tomorrow for a face to face to "put some offers on the table."
I don't know if I'm best suited for a relo position or for the traveling position that I'm gunning for but I know this much...1. Boss man likes me, as he told me 10 times on the phone, 2. I'm well suited for either position and 3. That I'm soon going to be employed.
I got some hot new shoes, painted my nails and have my outfit picked of for my big face to face. However it goes, I know, this will be where I'm best suited for, and where I'll soar to success.
That I got to share it with my best friend is a plus. God is good. always!
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