Did I kill my twin boys? My babies?

"I killed my babies." 

That's the thought that goes through my mind at the most random of times. Laying in bed, staring at the ceiling, willing sleep to come, I think, "I was given one job. To protect my baby boys." And I failed. You'll either understand that. Or you won't. I went through hell to get pregnant. Shots, scan, hormones, pills, hope, disappointment...

http://stillstandingmag.com/2015/07/kill-twin-boys/