I got baby embryos growing in my belly! I'm standing in faith believing that! Plus I look 6 months pregnant so that helps!
Crazy few days. It's absolutely overwhelming how everything is working together. "Where 2 or 3 are gathered." "He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it." "For I know the plans I have for you..."
I just want to say thank you to everyone who is in this with us. I called Mom at work last week to tell her we had 22 embryos and she was in the office with a lot of people around her and she says out loud "22 embryos" and I hear loud yells of excitement go up from people I know have been praying us through this. And the emails and texts and messages have been so uplifting. When we started this process and I prayed about whether to talk about this or not, this is more than I expected. So, thank you! What a blessing you all have been to me and Jason.
With that being said, it wasn't a fun week. We were like the bedridden wounded. I have been so incredibly bloated that I haven't been able to do anything. Breathing takes work. Jason has been taking great care of me and we have only threatened to kill each other a few times.
Sunday was the day. I didn't get much sleep as I was praying a lot and wondering. We didn't know anything about the embryos other than we had 22 on Thursday and they had a lot of work to do before Sunday. I have to tell you, I have had a very calming peace around me this whole time. This is not like me at all. God has given me a patience I've never really had. It's a nice change from the neurotic I'm used to. There was never really a question in my heart of whether we would have enough embryos. Whether things would work out. It wasn't naivety, it was God's comfort and maybe a little dose of Holy Boldness.
We got to the fertility clinic and I'm laying in the stirrups ready to get everything started. Jason is at my head kind of holding my hand, the nurse has the ultrasound on my belly and Dr B is ready for action. The embryologist comes out of his secret den of miracle babies and asks me my name and birthday to make sure it's me. He confirms and goes back in to get our babies. Dr B asks how old I am and I said I'd be 33 in November. Jason was quick to point out I'll be 34 in November. Oops. Thanks babe!
We have a little conversation and Dr B says we have 18 embryos! 18!!!! So lets put this in perspective. I'm clearly no expert but I've done quite a bit of research. Average egg retrieval is 5-10. I had 24. GOOD eggs. Most couples hope for 3-5 embryos. I had 18. And many of them were the best grade they give. I'm telling you, our babies are already showing off. Dr B sounded kind of giddy almost with how great everything has gone. As a Christian man and Dr I know that he believes that God has been all over this as much as we do.
So. I am with embryos. I have had to take it easy the past few days and the next few weeks will be much of the same. These little baby embryos need to get comfy and make themselves at home over the next 9 months. We find out in 2 weeks how things are progressing and continue to pray expectantly.
God is so good. I have no doubt that we have growing inside me what we have been praying for. That will be confirmed in a few weeks with a blood test. I appreciate the prayers of so many people who continue to share our excitement, our prayers that my body is healthy and the babies will grow, and who will celebrate with us when we get the wonderful news we are expecting. Standing firm in that belief!
I have never been more in love with my husband than I am now. We have been on bed rest which might suck if you weren't laying there with your best friend and the absolute love of your life. We have laughed until we've cried, we've prayed, we've talked about the future and we've just really taken the time to appreciate all that we have been shown and given through this journey we are on. I love him so much as my husband and best friend. I love him for so many reasons. I can't wait to love him as my baby's daddy!
Blessed so beyond anything I could have hoped for because right now I know how much we are loved and taken care of and protected. By God, our family and sweet friends. And whatever pain and discomfort we've been through is already forgotten as in my heart I know that God has blessed us with what we have so faithfully prayed for. Whether it's 1, 2 or 18 babies in God's timing we'll be holding those blessings!